|picture serving simply to remind me of how sweet she |
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
I should not be blogging. How I feel right now, while blogging, is the equivalent of drunk dialing. A full day with my half toddler/half monster has me questioning everything. (Yes, I know it is 5:14 and yes, I know I promised to stop analyzing during these hours. I lied.) To give you an accurate depiction of the day, Ross asked if we needed to eat dinner out. His ace card. I said no. He then asked something about guns. No guns here people but when I say no to dinner out, it's a natural next question. I have no desire whatsoever to sit in a restaurant with toddlermonster. Can y'all tell what kind of day you will have within the first five minutes after your child wakes up? I am pretty accurate with this and today was no exception. It's just been one of those days. One of those days when I think people with multiple children are bat crazy, one of those days when I wonder what the sam heck God was thinking when he asked me to parent this kid. Surely he could have gotten someone more qualified? I haven't yet broken into the tears waiting to flow, knowing full well that this will pass and I will be regaling you all with precious baby girl stories in no time. Please do not think I am whining but Lawd, it's just hard, y'all. 18 months is so fun, more fun each day. But it also brings a toddler who can't communicate well but knows exactly what she wants (and when). She doesn't understand discipline yet but redirecting 204,000 times a day is making me batty. I won't even put in the disclaimer about the bajillion moms whose days are harder, children more challenging. I am confident that you get where I am today. Just one of those hard mommy days where I think 5 more minutes of whining/crying might make me pull my hair out strand by strand. Ross will come home (poor guy), he'll take the babe and the dog for a walk. I'll put on some Jesus music and cook dinner. And I know that by the time they walk in the door, I'll already be missing that "hiiiiii" coming from the mouth of toddlermonster.