I am looking at easily the most beautiful work of photographic art I have ever seen. It's a little smudgy and the lines aren't all clear, but the image, well, it's breathtaking. Today we saw our baby for the first time (okay it's the second time but the first time it looked like a blob). Today we saw a little face that, Lord willing, will look back at us for the next 80 years. It was perfect and awe-inspiring and it was a nice change to a rough morning. I woke up in a funk. Well, we'll use the words 'woke-up' loosely since I didn't sleep much at all. Convinced that my restlessness was due to an impending problem with little babe, I had successfully driven baby's dad crazy by 7:30 am. I said, "I will take this baby any way, any how, I just really really really want to have him." R gave me obligatory snuggle and rattled off all the things you are supposed to say to an insane mother. I told him this is just the beginning of my worrying about this little person.
I did, however, say some semblances of prayers for a healthy baby and for protection along the way. God smiled down at his neurotic daughter and we were on en route to see our baby. And it was...it was...unbelievable. I can't think of another word. I was looking at our child. Little baby's first introduction included crossing her arms to cover her face, putting both arms above his head, fist pumping the air. (obviously we are using gender interchangably here). Little baby has 4 ventricles to her heart and a precious little tailbone. The doctor gave us two thumbs up on all the baby's parts. The only person to get a thumbs down was mama and her weight gain but that's not for the world wide web :)
Anyway, this is one of those posts that's more for memory and less for artistic expression, but I can't let too many days go by without putting the words down. We are half-way there. In the coming months, we get to welcome Patrick home, go on a baby-moon to a beautiful island, take a cooking class, celebrate Easter and mom's 50th! birthday, snuggle two friends' new babies, go to the beach with girl friends, and grow bigger and bigger with the beautiful spring weather. I could not be more happy to have a little partner along for the ride, with me every step of the way. Thank you God for such an undeserved and amazing blessing!